The King's Conquest: A Manual for Costly Discipleship (First Strike Edition)
Was I Stupid to Love You?
It's 3 AM.
The bills are late.
The church calls you divisive.
Your family calls you fanatic.
Your bank account calls you fool.
And you're asking God the question every man wrestling with costly obedience asks:
"Was I stupid to love You?"
Peter walked on water. Then sank.
Peter swore he'd die for Christ. Then denied Him three times.
Peter got restored. Then got crucified upside down.
Was Peter stupid?
Job lost ten children in one day.
Sat in ash scraping boils with pottery for six months.
His wife told him to curse God and die.
God showed up and never answered his questions.
Was Job stupid?
Paul got beaten with rods three times. Stoned once. Shipwrecked three times.
Spent a night and a day in the deep.
Then got beheaded in Rome.
Was Paul stupid?
This manual is for men who stayed.
Not because it was smart.
Not because it worked.
Not because the math made sense.
Because Christ is true.
And costly discipleship is the only kind that produces masculine transformation—not the podcast-and-prayer-journal version that leaves men unchanged.
Most Churches Preach a Cost-Free Gospel
"Come to Jesus and get blessed."
"God wants to prosper you."
"If you're struggling, you must be in sin."
That's not what Christ preached.
Matthew 16:24:
"If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow me."
Not carry a metaphorical burden. Take up your cross.
In first-century Palestine, a cross meant one thing: execution.
Luke 14:33:
"Whosoever he be of you that forsaketh not all that he hath, he cannot be my disciple."
Not "tithe faithfully." Not "be generous." Forsake ALL.
2 Timothy 3:12:
"All that will live godly in Christ Jesus shall suffer persecution."
Not "might suffer." Not "if they're unlucky." Shall suffer.
And When Men Discover Discipleship Costs Everything—
Most of them quit.
They either:
- Walk away (like the rich young ruler—sad, but intact)
- Betray from the inside (like Judas—stay close, sabotage quietly)
- Grow bitter (stay in church, lose their conviction, become cynical)
Because no one taught them that asking "Was I stupid to love You?" is part of the forge.
The King's Conquest: The Manual for Men Who Stay
This isn't devotional fluff.
This isn't "10 tips for better quiet times."
This isn't soft complementarian theology with masculine branding.
This is the complete framework for costly discipleship that actually transforms men.
Inside this manual, you get:
✅ PART 1: THE FOUNDATION
Chapter 1: "Was I Stupid to Love You?" (The Poem + Exegesis)
- The full visceral poem that makes soft Christians uncomfortable
- Biblical exegesis: Why this question isn't doubt—it's honesty
- The three responses to cost: Walk away (rich young ruler), betray (Judas), or stay and fail and stay again (Peter)
Chapter 2: The Question Christ Actually Asked
- John 21:15-17 deep dive: Why Jesus asked Peter about love, not understanding
- The agape vs. phileo linguistic shift most pastors miss
- Why love—not qualification—is the foundation of obedience
Chapter 3: Peter's Trajectory Map
- The complete transformation framework: Impulsive zeal → Catastrophic failure → Costly obedience
- Water → Denial → Crucifixion: What actually transforms boys into men
- How to identify which phase you're in (and what to do about it)
✅ PART 2: THE DIAGNOSTIC TOOL
Chapter 4: The "Was I Stupid?" Diagnostic
- 12-question assessment to determine if you're in costly discipleship or foolish presumption
- Scoring guide: When to stay, when to pivot, when to seek correction
- How to counsel men questioning obedience without giving permission to quit
✅ APPENDIX A: THE ARSENAL
- Scripture Memory Arsenal: 30 verses on costly discipleship (KJV)
- The Fool's Litany: Prayer guide for men who stayed when the smart ones walked away
First Strike Edition (Immediate Delivery)
- 30+ pages of viscerally written, theologically bulletproof content
- PDF format (read on any device, print for study groups)
- Complete frameworks you can teach THIS WEEK (not teasers)
- Practical diagnostic tool for counseling men in crisis
- Scripture arsenal for when you're asking the question at 3 AM
Full Manual (Coming Within 30 Days if Pre-Order)
If you purchase during pre-order window:
- Automatic upgrade to 80-100 page full manual
- Additional 7 chapters (Job's unanswered questions, Rich Young Ruler test, Two Dead Women case study)
- 12-week Cost Inventory audit
- Deployment protocols for fathers, church leaders, men in crisis
(Note: Adjust this section based on whether selling standalone or pre-order version)
WHO THIS IS FOR
This manual is for you if:
✅ You gave everything and got splinters
✅ Your family thinks you're extreme
✅ Your church thinks you're divisive
✅ You're obscure, broke, and misunderstood—and still obeying
✅ You've asked "Was I stupid to love You?" at 3 AM
✅ You're tired of soft discipleship that produces soft men
✅ You want the framework to teach costly obedience without producing Pharisees
✅ You're a father who wants to teach your sons what discipleship actually costs
✅ You're a pastor who's tired of preaching prosperity and seeing no transformation
✅ You're in the ash heap right now—and you need to know you're not alone
This manual is NOT for you if:
❌ You want a cost-free gospel
❌ You're looking for "5 tips for a blessed life"
❌ You think suffering means you're in sin
❌ You're not willing to be called divisive, extreme, or foolish
❌ You want Jesus as life coach, not Lord
❌ You're the rich young ruler looking for affirmation to walk away
THE PRICE
Standalone: $47
Pre-Order (First Strike + Full Manual): $97
Why $47 for a 30-page PDF?
Because this isn't 30 pages of devotional fluff.
This is:
- The complete Peter Trajectory framework (used by church leaders to train men)
- The 12-question diagnostic (pastoral tool worth $200+ in counseling)
- 30 Scripture verses (the arsenal you'll return to for years)
- The theological foundation that separates costly discipleship from religious performance
Most men spend $47 on:
- Books they never finish
- Courses they never implement
- Conferences that produce emotion but no transformation
This manual is the framework you'll use for the rest of your life.
When you're counseling a man at 3 AM who's questioning his obedience—
When you're teaching your son what the cross actually costs—
When you're in the ash heap asking God if you heard Him wrong—
You'll return to this.
$47 is nothing compared to what it cost Peter, Job, and Paul.
And it's nothing compared to what it's costing you.
This manual answers the question:
"Why do men who follow soft discipleship stay unchanged?"
Because conviction without framework is just religious emotion.
"Why do so many men quit when discipleship costs something?"
Because no one taught them that asking "Was I stupid?" is part of the forge.
"Why does modern Christianity produce passive men?"
Because we preach a gospel that costs nothing—and get Christians who are worth nothing in the Kingdom.
Arnold Murray built the biggest independent church in America (20 million homes/day) from a converted roller rink in Arkansas.
He was despised. Criticized. Called heretic.
And he never stopped.
This manual is for men like that.
Men who build when everyone else quits.
Men who stay when the smart ones walk away.
Men who answer "Do you love Me?" with broken, grieved, unqualified "yes"—and get crucified for it.
THE GUARANTEE
The Biblical Man Guarantee
If you read this manual and think, "This is just soft devotional content disguised as masculine discipleship"
Get your money back. Full refund. No questions asked.
But if you read this and realize:
"This is why I've been asking 'Was I stupid?'—because I'm being forged, not foolish"—
Then this manual is worth 100x what you paid.
30-day money-back guarantee.
Not because I think you'll want a refund.
Because men who stay don't need guarantees.
They need frameworks.
And this is it.
Here's What Happens After You Buy:
- Instant access to the PDF (download immediately)
- Read the poem (you'll feel seen for the first time)
- Take the diagnostic (find out if you're in costly discipleship or foolish presumption)
- Apply Peter's Trajectory (identify your phase, know what's next)
- Teach it to other men (this framework isn't just for you—it's for your sons, your church, your brothers)
The Question You'll Stop Asking:
"Was I stupid to love You?"
Because you'll realize:
The men who walked away weren't stupid. They were smart.
They kept their wealth, their status, their safety.
You stayed because you're a different kind of fool.
The kind Christ can use.
And this manual is proof:
You're not alone.
Peter asked it.
Job asked it.
Paul asked it.
And they became the rock, the patient, the apostle.
You're being forged.
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